Transparent

A few weeks ago, I went to an event that was billed as being a space, “exclusive to Female Dominants and those submissive to them.” This event failed to live up to what was listed on the tin, but that wasn’t really a surprise. What was surprising was that my jaded ass came away with some ideas to contemplate.

Specifically, there was one moment I found striking.

A girl was being beaten in the next room. I did not go to watch this session. I just listened.

Honestly, I’ve heard seen scenes like this enough times that I could probably guess with decent accuracy what was being used on her her by sound alone.

The wailing turned to sobs and it was clearly cathartic, and I got some satisfaction listening to her take it. Especially because she’d been such a brat earlier, the sadism of the tops working on her was gratifying. (Yes, yes, I know that’s what she wanted, but whatever – people can play whatever game they please)

Anyway – at some point I interacted with the girl who was being beaten and remember her claiming to be “transparent when she bottoms.”

Ignoring the opportunity to poke fun at the metaphor, I really like this idea and am surprised I haven’t heard or thought of it sooner.

I mean pushing myself to be vulnerable has been a consistent goal for me, but to get so real and raw that every/all/any/every emotion is unfiltered and on display? Well, that truly has not been something I’ve thought about.

To be completely transparent while remaining obedient throughout – that’s fucking hot.

I’m already wondering how this could be true. How, after all this pushing to be raw and vulnerable, was there was ‘something’ I covered up?

Or maybe, I thought the act of ‘breaking’ (at the hand of my dominant) would make me magically transparent. As if leaving that shift as the responsibility of another is a good idea.

I don’t know, but ever since that event, this idea has been on my mind.

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7 thoughts on “Transparent

  1. Bratting, for me, goes beyond the neutral YKINMK boundary and straight into actively-turn-me-off hostile terrain. So I just got a little jolt of happy imagining the thorough beating of Miss Bratty Pants. (Which was tempered greatly by the fact that she got what she wanted. Le sigh.)

    Transparency means different things to different people, I think. I’d be interested to know where that line of thinking takes you.

    It’s nice to see a post from you again; it’s been a while.

    xo

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    1. “I just got a little jolt of happy imagining the thorough beating of Miss Bratty Pants (Which was tempered greatly by the fact that she got what she wanted. Le sigh)”

      Yes, but I would say do not let your heart be troubled; it really did sound like she bit off a bit off A LOT more than she ever planned on chewing…Still, I feel you…Trust me…brats get on my last nerve.

      “Transparency means different things to different people, I think. I’d be interested to know where that line of thinking takes you.”

      Still wrestling with the topic with more to come. And – as always – appreciate your voice in the conversation.

      “It’s nice to see a post from you again; it’s been a while.”

      Thank you! Still trying to find the elusive work/life/writing balance…But I appreciate that your still around to chat once I’ve sorted it out.

      You’re a peach!

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    1. Let me be clear: I am pretty goddamn transparent in session. That’s not a problem. (And I do not play in public so that’s not even a consideration)

      What I am talking about is maintaining that level of transparency/vulnerability as a continuum.

      Probably not being clear, which is my fault…will continue on this topic in another post.

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    2. Maybe a bit more explanation of transparency as I may have misinterpreted this. I focused on a common complaint from dominatrices (in both private & public sessions) of their clients being too closed up, silent, etc. (showing as little emotion as possible) which makes the experience less satisfying to them.

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