A few weeks ago, I went to an event that was billed as being a space, “exclusive to Female Dominants and those submissive to them.” This event failed to live up to what was listed on the tin, but that wasn’t really a surprise. What was surprising was that my jaded ass came away with some ideas to contemplate.
Specifically, there was one moment I found striking.
A girl was being beaten in the next room. I did not go to watch this session. I just listened.
Honestly, I’ve heard seen scenes like this enough times that I could probably guess with decent accuracy what was being used on her her by sound alone.
The wailing turned to sobs and it was clearly cathartic, and I got some satisfaction listening to her take it. Especially because she’d been such a brat earlier, the sadism of the tops working on her was gratifying. (Yes, yes, I know that’s what she wanted, but whatever – people can play whatever game they please)
Anyway – at some point I interacted with the girl who was being beaten and remember her claiming to be “transparent when she bottoms.”
Ignoring the opportunity to poke fun at the metaphor, I really like this idea and am surprised I haven’t heard or thought of it sooner.
I mean pushing myself to be vulnerable has been a consistent goal for me, but to get so real and raw that every/all/any/every emotion is unfiltered and on display? Well, that truly has not been something I’ve thought about.
To be completely transparent while remaining obedient throughout – that’s fucking hot.
I’m already wondering how this could be true. How, after all this pushing to be raw and vulnerable, was there was ‘something’ I covered up?
Or maybe, I thought the act of ‘breaking’ (at the hand of my dominant) would make me magically transparent. As if leaving that shift as the responsibility of another is a good idea.
I don’t know, but ever since that event, this idea has been on my mind.